Happy New Year!

hey loves!

since today is the last day of 2010, i've been reflecting on the past year and it's unbelievable how fast it flew by. nevertheless, it's been a pretty great year, but i definitely have a feeling 2011 is going to be even better!

so i've been sitting here staring at a blank screen trying to figure out what it is that i really wanted to improve on and what goals i wanted to set for 2011... and the biggest goal was,

don't hold back.

2011 is going to be a big year for me. i told my girl amber the other day that it was time, the time for everything. & i really feel like it is. if there is something that i've wanted to do, i feel like i need to just go for it and make it happen. there's no better time to throw myself out there than now. i'm graduating from college in may, and then i will be entering the real world. i admit i'm a bit nervous and sad to say goodbye to the amazing people i've met, but at the same time, i cannotttt flippin wait! another chapter! any doubts i've ever had in myself need to fly out the window because they won't get me anywhere. it's like kanye said, shoot for the stars, so if you fall you land on a cloud. that's my philosophy from now on.

i asked people on twitter and fb what their 2011 resolutions/goals were and here are a few of them:

• drink more water
• good grades
• new job with better pay
• find a group of real friends
• get back in shape
• make good music
• find a potential love interest
• save money
• grow up

here are mine:

• get right with god--i admit, i've lost a little faith, i need to revive that asap.
• gain more patience--eh, i really try to be patient, but i just get so anxious.
• get a job/internship--let us pray. god knows i need it.
• exercise regularly--i'm not sure what happened last semester... i was doing so well. haha.
• more acts of kindness--gotta give back in some way.
• push to try new things--i love trying new things, so this is just a reminder to never let life get mundane. everyone knows i love adventures!!
• be a better daughter--oh gosh. i'm horrible you guys. anything that i have bottled up, i tend to take it out on my parents. they definitely do not deserve it. & we all need to work on our communication skills with one another.
• believe in myself--sometimes i'm the worst at this, and that's just the saddest thing! i have a lot going for me!
• & of course, no holding back--what's the worst that could happen? you only live once right? gotta get in that mindset. this will definitely be a challenge because i'm not used to thinking like this... yet!

of course i'm not going to change over night, but i do believe that if i want these things bad enough, they will happen. plus, it's always nice to have something positive to work towards. :)

well anyways, happy new years guys! hope you guys bring it in with a bang! & if you're out drinking, please be smart and don't drive!! i'd hate for any of yall to get hurt! be safe!

[tell me this isn't dope!]

♥g