featuring JT... who i miss dearly.
love.
love.
caution: reflecting/ventilation: i'm trying not to take life personal right now, but it's getting kinda... personal. seems like i get bad news more than i get good news. & most times i can stay positive about it and move along. but sometimes i get caught up. my minds been doing that for years. so sometimes i fall back into that habit. i'm just gonna take every day as it comes. i'm gonna try my best to stay positive and chipper as i usually am, but forgive me if i'm zoned out and quiet. that should be okay too, right?
i rarely talk about how i feel. about anything personal. to anyone. any issues i have, i tend to keep them to myself. like you might know that i'm having a tough time, but that's probably it. cause i feel like i'm burdening someone in making them listen. cause i've had one too many times where i've told someone something and yeah, they were listening--but they didn't hear one thing i was saying. THAT, to me is like... why am i wasting my time and breath? i've been let down so many times that now i'm just like nahhh i'm gonna keep it to myself and my diary and i'm gonna get through this on my own. horrible philosophy though. i know that. but it's where i'm at today. i'm trying to change. & i'm trying to trust. but it's just where i am right now. bare with me.
so tonight, i was talking to my friend [thank you] who really gets what i'm going though right now... [i didn't even have to tell her what was wrong and it made me feel a whole lot better. we just talked about not being able to talk to people about our issues and why... haha kinda ironic huh? is that the right word? sometimes i just need someone i can relate to. or someone that is trying to relate. effort, please. i'd do the dang same for you.] & i came to the conclusion that i'm gonna try to do less worrying, and have more faith. sometimes i forget that God wouldn't put anything on me that i can't handle. so i'm gonna handle it, as best as i can. what else can i do, ya know?
just had to speak on some things. vaguely, yes. but still. & this time i don't really care if anyone was listening. this time, it was for me. :)
this is another reason i've taken it as my mission to be there for anyone that needs someone to listen. because i know how important that is. i'm gonna be there for whoever may need me. stranger, best friend, acquaintance, etc. i've said it once, i'll say it again--i'm here if you need me. with no judgment. my ears aren't just for music. ;)
maybe you can relate?
maybe not?
[was this too personal?
it won't happen often i swear]!
either way, g'night!!
i rarely talk about how i feel. about anything personal. to anyone. any issues i have, i tend to keep them to myself. like you might know that i'm having a tough time, but that's probably it. cause i feel like i'm burdening someone in making them listen. cause i've had one too many times where i've told someone something and yeah, they were listening--but they didn't hear one thing i was saying. THAT, to me is like... why am i wasting my time and breath? i've been let down so many times that now i'm just like nahhh i'm gonna keep it to myself and my diary and i'm gonna get through this on my own. horrible philosophy though. i know that. but it's where i'm at today. i'm trying to change. & i'm trying to trust. but it's just where i am right now. bare with me.
so tonight, i was talking to my friend [thank you] who really gets what i'm going though right now... [i didn't even have to tell her what was wrong and it made me feel a whole lot better. we just talked about not being able to talk to people about our issues and why... haha kinda ironic huh? is that the right word? sometimes i just need someone i can relate to. or someone that is trying to relate. effort, please. i'd do the dang same for you.] & i came to the conclusion that i'm gonna try to do less worrying, and have more faith. sometimes i forget that God wouldn't put anything on me that i can't handle. so i'm gonna handle it, as best as i can. what else can i do, ya know?
just had to speak on some things. vaguely, yes. but still. & this time i don't really care if anyone was listening. this time, it was for me. :)
this is another reason i've taken it as my mission to be there for anyone that needs someone to listen. because i know how important that is. i'm gonna be there for whoever may need me. stranger, best friend, acquaintance, etc. i've said it once, i'll say it again--i'm here if you need me. with no judgment. my ears aren't just for music. ;)
maybe you can relate?
maybe not?
[was this too personal?
it won't happen often i swear]!
either way, g'night!!
♥g
2 comments:
reflection is always healthy. dont beat urself up too bad, love.
not too personal. venting is always good, whether it's once in a while or every other day.
i most definitely can relate to this SOOO MUCH!
stay up babe :)
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